Few days ago Indonesians were shocked by several bombings happened in 2 straight days. For me, it was like having your old fear resurfaced. I can still recall that event back in December 2000. I went to the annual Christmas Eve mass with my whole family in St Yoseph Catholic church, Matraman. My little brother and my little cousin were so noisy that night that we came home earlier, before the final blessing, - if I'm not mistaken.
We had already aware that there was bomb explosion in a nearby church ( I kinda forget whether that information came from a text message my dad received from our relative or we heard it previously in the middle of the mass), but we had not even have the slightest imagination that the bombing will be occured in our church. My family and I went to the parking area of Budaya's Catholic school which were located less than 100 meters from the church itself, since our car parked there. Before we get into the car, we sat on the bench at the parking lot - that was when we heard a very loud sound which somehow we could relate that a bomb has been exploded nearby. People at the parking lot were silenced for a brief moment, and so did we - we had no idea what to do. My dad instructed us to go home by walking (our house back then was in Tegalan, around 1 km from the church) for he afraid another bomb might be installed in one of the cars there.
As we prepared to walk, my aunt came crying. She was walking in front of Bank BNI (about 20 meters from the church) just after the mass (she stayed at the Mass until the final blessing) when she saw the bomb exploded. She was so startled, much more than us for she saw the explosion directly. The loud sound of the explosion kept haunting my ears hours after. It was not a good memory for a child like me. I still get very emotional every time that memory crosses my mind.
Fast forward, we learned that the bomb was exploded in the bus shelter in front of my elementary school which was located beside the church. It killed some people and harmed many. Just minutes prior to the explosion, before the mass ended my brother and cousin were playing and running near that area. We were so lucky and grateful that the bomb did not killed or harm us. But, still we grieved for those who died and lost their relatives, those who should endured permanent damages on their bodies.
And now, it is hard to believe but it happened again. Worse, there are people who believe that the bombings are just another plot to cover some political issues. How could people think like that? It is a fact that there are people who have been taught wrong things or have wrongly interpreted a teaching that made them believe that killing themselves and other people would bring heaven to them. Sometimes I do pity them, for they too are victims of wrong indoctrination.
I guess we have to go back to the ultimate thing we have, love. Just yesterday I read someone wrote "Love exists before religion does" and I could not agree more. Before humans were in touch with religions, they felt love first. Why don't we keep that one ultimate thing we call love live inside us? If we do, I guess no such thing as terrorism will happen - for love conquers all, including differences and hatred.