in this mean time of my life. in these weakest days, all i need is my best friends. the ones who care about me, the ones who won't judge me, the ones who know me very well. i really need strength and courage to face every day in my life. i'm just a coward hiding behind my poker face and fake smile. i seems okay, but deep down i'm not. so i just wish i could meet them, because they listen and trust me. sometimes i just wish i could have couple days out of town with them, to avoid all this crowd. to stop me starring at my blackberry. to give me some peace. and the most important thing is to heal this heart.